Of Decisions and Other Demons…

Looks like the Man (can I be excused for imagining God to be a Man – no, I hold nothing against the pretty ladies, but it’s just that every time I say the word, the benign/stern face, depending on the case, of Morgan Freeman appears on my mind-screen – too much of Hollywood I’m sure :-)…But, on a more serious note, God is just so much prone to mistakes that he’s more likely to be a man rather than a woman – I think, a woman, in a post like this, would have been more effective and just - besides, just think how much you could score on the political correctness side of it :-) - a woman on top, the top boss literally!! But, there’s another if here – a woman in a power-position, without the right orientation, could be a disaster – the scale tips more towards being emotional and may be, personal for them (this is a strictly personal opinion - due apologies for the level-headed exceptions - if you are REAL, where are you? The world needs YOU!!) while for guys, it’s like, too-hell-with-the-world, it’s just another day, another job :-) ) up above just missed the decision-box inside my head!! How else do I explain this! I just don’t seem to be holding it at one place..it keeps swaying – my mind!

image courtesy - whitezine

A dear friend of mine, Miss K (now a happy and proud Mrs.) once remarked, it’s a problem of too many choices. Hmm I didn’t agree, it’s quite the opposite rather. When you are left with fewer options, you only devote your entire concentration on going for the right thing at the right time – you surely don’t want to use words like “repent” or make it yet another case of “what if I..” – So, you think hard and think more. Think twice, and think wise. Whether or not you go for that so-called “right thing”, is so relative, always. And, what is this right thing by the way? Do you always create a case for and against yourself, your every move, and put yourself in the accusation-box before the jury panel who would give the verdict out? Some people do.

I think, the more important question here is – what is the best thing for you? Do you even know what you want or what would make you the happiest? Knowing yourself inside out holds the key. When you are your best mate, you know yourself like no one else does – then, you know what you want. And, when you know that, you are sure of it, and can tell the whole world that this is what you want – or, you don’t even TELL the world about it, just say it to yourself that YES, this is what I WANT, this is what I have always wanted – you have won it!!

Okay, confession time – I could never do this. For me, it’s always been like “yeah, THIS is it, umm, no wait, not this one, let me check out THAT instead…” Too bad, eh? Another dear friend, Mr. N, rather emphatically, commented that I like to keep my options open :-) That’s too simplistic an observation, undermining the deeper complexities. Now that I have uttered the ultimate C-word :-), you might just as well ask, what are these god-damn complexities? Your name does not start with M and you are not running for the CM’s post in Bengal :-)) (yeah, okay, okay that was a BAD joke)..See, there could be a multitude of possibilities dictating your decision-making abilities:

• you don’t know what you want
• you know what you want, but, think that might not serve an over-all good purpose
• you know what you want, will be of greater and further good, but you are apprehensive about others’ approval
• you think you are destined for something BIGGER and BETTER and you prefer to wait for the next opportunate moment (no, I can’t call you an opportunist for that)
• you feel none of the options you're given, can make any substantial difference to the situation you're in right now, and so, you deter yourself from taking a decision
• you doubt if your choice fails to work out accordingly, you have no one to fall back upon to do some damage-control, so you prefer maintaining the status quo (I know, I know where it's coming from) 'cause you don't want to make it anymore worse
• you've never been presented with a REAL critical situation and so, your abilities are yet to be tested
• you are bogged down by constant self-criticism and self-analysis
• your decisions, so far, have been met with much disappointment
• you never had anyone whom you could look up to in situations like this
• you yourself are your BIGGEST critic
• you take things TOO seriously
• you just think TOO much

I told you :-) it’s not easy…'To be or not to be' it was for a once-upon-a-time prince from Denmark - and your Hamletian dilemma remains to DO or NOT to DO..I dedicate this post to all those troubled, tortured, tormented (wow!! now that sounds heavy) souls :-) who think, THINKING is one thing, DOING it is one thing, and then, DECIDING it, is quite another thing!!

P.S. - Does my post-title ring a bell :-) ? You can't really miss that Márquez-ness (of the title, of JUST the tile I mean) :-) - remember Of Love and Other Demons?I tried to avoid, but I just had to give in...